With neurodivergence and mental health issues, we focus on how it's “ruined” our lives. However, there are immense blessings as well. Tune in for a paradigm shift.
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00:01:49 --> 00:01:49 I meant it,
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00:02:52 --> 00:02:56 but the general feeling that I was signing on the dotted line
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00:03:07 --> 00:03:11 It clearly factored into my decision to become a Christian
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00:04:24 --> 00:04:27 Satan may have meant it as a thorn in my side,
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00:05:34 --> 00:05:38 That set us both on a trajectory that has changed the course of
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00:06:05 --> 00:06:10 I tell it because what seems to be a heavy burden may be the
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00:06:35 --> 00:06:39 Have you ever grappled similarly with your conscience and come
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