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[00:00:58] Anchor is simply because he is who he says he is. And he's such a wonderful, wonderful savior. He's so kind. He's so generous. He's just and he is faithful.
[00:01:29] So wherever you are listening to this, whenever you get up, whenever you fall asleep, play this. Share this with your friends, your neighbors, your family, and even especially your enemies.
[00:01:47] Because we all have a soul that needs to be saved, set free, sanctified and delivered. And we don't want to burn in hell. Surely we don't want anyone else to go there either.
[00:02:06] And don't think about them thoughts. That the enemy tries to, well you know that one over there and maybe that no, the devil's a liar. He's trying to tempt you to agree with him, to agree with a lie.
[00:02:22] Jesus came all those years ago in the form of flesh, nasty sinful flesh to redeem a wretch like you and me. I don't know about you, but I know I was undone. I was messed up. I was jacked up. I was...
[00:02:53] In my sense, on my way to burning hell with Satan and his demons. I usually say, limps, wimps, imps, pimps, whatever they want to call themselves. And I'm good with that because they've done so much evil and they're still doing so much evil and causing people to kill each other.
[00:03:29] Kill themselves and hurt each other and hurt themselves and just be wrong and not right. Now I know, excuse me, that God loves you and I know that he loves me because if he didn't we wouldn't be up.
[00:03:59] I wouldn't be making this podcast. You wouldn't be listening to it. You wouldn't be thinking to share it. You wouldn't be letting other people hear it with you. Hey, I found this podcast man. I'm telling you, it's the truth and she just, I don't know who she is or wherever she's at.
[00:04:17] I'm in the United States of America. I live in Rochester, New York and I'm telling you, just like over here in my neck of the woods, the devil is acting up. I'm sure he's acting up over there in your neck of the woods.
[00:04:38] What we like to do is pray and talk to Jesus and be grateful for another moment and ask the Holy Spirit to lead us in kindness and say, Lord God, I thank you for today because today is just a blessing that will do with what the weather looks like in your neck of the woods.
[00:05:07] But if I look at it, it's only an exclude, do, blah, blah, blah, blah. Okay. These are the days when I was depressed. I'll be the most sad.
[00:05:30] These are the days when I was most sad that I think continuously about suicide and that I didn't deserve to be here.
[00:05:44] And every time I would think about life, I would be angry because my mother was gone, my grandmother was gone, my brother was gone. All these people died.
[00:05:59] My mother killed my father. Maybe that was because of me and when I found out the reason why she killed him was because of me because she didn't want what was bad for me.
[00:06:10] But the devil tried to play that in my mind like, yes, you did it's your fault. I used to try to hold on to that. It is my fault.
[00:06:20] You're the reason why your mother killed your father and then because she had to repress you. So because of you, he tried it. But God stepped in on time.
[00:06:37] I had time in my time to save me, to deliver me, to set me free so that my children can have the opportunity to be won over by his goodness, his grace, his love, his mercy, his truth, his peace, his joy, his salvation.
[00:07:06] So yes, I'm smiling today because even though the day looks gloom, it's still bright for me.
[00:07:18] It is a cruel, because I have my peace. I have my mind. I have my joy.
[00:07:30] Oh, thank you Father. And I'm grateful to God for allowing me this opportunity to thank you. Thank you Heavenly Father.
[00:07:57] It's that one song used to say, reshining your light on me. Thank you, thank you, thank you for giving your light to the world.
[00:08:14] Thank you, thank you, thank you. And it's not the light of the month because I'm at home and I'm in a room that has a light on. That's not the light I'm talking about.
[00:08:27] I'm talking about the light of the world, Jesus. I'm talking about the Holy Spirit. When it's only inside of you, it exudes the light of Jesus only outside of you.
[00:08:44] People will know something's different about her. Look at them over there, they're so bright, they're so like, you know, and then they'll ask, hey, you look different. What's going on?
[00:09:03] Doing things different. Why? And then you can tell them, if it wasn't for the Lord who is on my side, I really truly don't know where I'd be. But now I'm grateful because I'm reaching towards the Father.
[00:09:26] I'm grateful, I give you all the glory, Father. I give you all the honor, Lord of Lords and King of Kings, my gentle redeemer, Jehovah Jairah, Jehovah Nisi, Jehovah Tiskenu, Jehovah Shabbah, Jehovah Gabor, Jehovah Rafa.
[00:10:08] I praise you, I lift you up and that's just a few of the kind words God allows me to say to Him. Considering this mouth used to curse people out, this mouth used to tell people off, this mouth used to think it knew everything.
[00:10:40] Because my mind was not in Christ. My mind was in the world, it thought it knew everything. On very ignorant occasions, it tries to think back again and I have to put my foot on my flesh and say no, let this mind be in you that was also in Christ Jesus, I believe.
[00:11:13] That's the word of God or let this mind be in you that is also in Christ Jesus. To pray and ask God for help and deliverance.
[00:11:35] In that, Lord I repent. I repent boldly, help me to forsake it and leave it alone and move with you in the name of Jesus. And that's just a little piece of another part of my testimony.
[00:12:00] Because God didn't have to allow me to even live. I feel like I really need to share this right now when I was saying that God didn't really even have to allow me to live.
[00:12:21] That He didn't really have to allow me to live. I remember when I was 22 years old, I was playing with God and playing church in and out, in and out. And I remember thinking, I'm tired, I really don't want to be here.
[00:12:47] I'm tired and I just craziness. And then I took this medicine that the doctor gave me. And once again, I took it without eating.
[00:13:17] And I was in the mode of this complaining about this, complaining about that. I was depressed and I was sad and I was angry.
[00:13:29] And I didn't realize that I was so angry with God. And God in turn was angry with me.
[00:13:43] You really don't want to see the wrath of God begin to come down on you and getting ready to snatch your life. I mean, really getting ready to snatch your life.
[00:14:07] I was laid in my unit. I'll say unit because I was in this place or shelter where I had to pay $257 for rent. Everything was included.
[00:14:30] Yeah, price is not like that no more these days. But in any case, I'll pay $257 for this single room.
[00:14:40] And this shelter per se, longer than I was paying, I could stay.
[00:14:49] And that was fine with me. The rent was all caught up. I had enough food in my refrigerator to last me two weeks because it was only when I'm college dorm refrigerator.
[00:15:03] So yeah, I would go grocery shopping for about with about $50.
[00:15:07] I would get up, go through my day, do whatever. But this one particular week, I wasn't really feeling that well.
[00:15:16] And I was off this particular day.
[00:15:23] I was complaining to God about my life. My life wasn't that bad, but I was the first.
[00:15:32] I was the first. I was the first.
[00:15:38] I was the first.
[00:15:43] I was the first.
[00:15:46] I was complaining to God about my life. My life wasn't that bad, but I was the first. I was sad.
[00:15:56] I felt like killing myself. So I pulled, I tried to pull a job.
[00:16:05] What I mean by that Lord, I don't believe I'm supposed to be alive.
[00:16:11] You know why is this going on? Why is this happening?
[00:16:13] And you know, you allowed me to be here. You let me get born and go through what I went through.
[00:16:21] My mother's not here. My grandmother's not here. My brother's not here.
[00:16:25] This over here, that over there. My brother's in and out of jail.
[00:16:30] Maybe if I wasn't here, maybe nothing stuff would have happened.
[00:16:35] Well, I forgot I took that medicine without eating anything.
[00:16:45] That type of medicine as was warned.
[00:16:50] If you don't eat anything can cause severe chest pains to the point where you may have to go to emergency so that they can give you something to counteract it.
[00:17:07] Otherwise, you could possibly die.
[00:17:09] And that particular day I was in a lot of pain from the last three or four days that I was working.
[00:17:20] So, and my arms were really heavy and couldn't really do this. I couldn't really do that.
[00:17:29] So I like I need to clean my room. So let me take this medicine.
[00:17:34] And I thought I was big and bad enough to do all that.
[00:17:38] Well, I took the medicine. It's called Ray-Loffin.
[00:17:46] And really strong ibuprofen.
[00:17:50] And I decided to take two of them instead of the one that they told me to take.
[00:17:59] And so I took it and all of a sudden my chest within like 23 minutes started just...
[00:18:08] It was hit. My heart felt like it was about to burst.
[00:18:14] How is it so much pain and agony? No.
[00:18:17] So let me complain to God. I'm praying. Please Lord, don't take me. I'm sorry.
[00:18:24] And then as I was looking out the window as I'm saying, I'm sorry.
[00:18:32] I guess I must have been fake sorry.
[00:18:34] I was doing it like Esau, seeking the Lord with tears, trying to get some help.
[00:18:45] And I saw this big black hand like in the movie, the cartoon movie and even the real movie about Moses or the Prince of Egypt.
[00:19:00] That was made by DreamWorks and the Ten Commandments that was made by, I guess Universal Studios or whoever made it.
[00:19:11] And they showed the hand of God in the form of a cloud that was really dark smoke cloud coming down and reaching down and killing people.
[00:19:23] The firstborn.
[00:19:25] Yeah, I actually saw that hand firsthand for real in this world, in this life 29 years ago.
[00:19:37] So thank you Jesus that that hand did not take me out.
[00:19:44] So you really want to get on God's bad side?
[00:19:48] I think not.
[00:19:50] You really want to challenge God?
[00:19:53] I think not.
[00:19:54] Please, ladies and gentlemen, don't do it.
[00:20:01] It's not worth it.
[00:20:03] It's not worth you losing your life and going to hell because that's where I was going to be at.
[00:20:11] I wouldn't even be here to tell you this testimony because the right hand of the thought was coming down in the form of a black, ugly cloud.
[00:20:28] And I seen it reach over, come in through my window and touch my toes.
[00:20:37] And I said, oh Father God.
[00:20:40] And I felt like I was being pulled out of my body.
[00:20:43] And as I was feeling that, I said, oh Father God, I do repentance and I'm so sorry.
[00:20:51] Please forgive me Lord.
[00:20:53] Please forgive me.
[00:20:55] Help me Father God.
[00:20:56] In the name of Jesus, help me. Repentance.
[00:21:04] I am so sorry.
[00:21:08] I'm really not ready to go.
[00:21:10] I don't want to go to hell.
[00:21:12] I do believe that your son died on that cross.
[00:21:18] And as I was praying, I saw, I felt my body be normal again.
[00:21:26] As far as laying there in the pain, I was still in the pain, but I was grateful to still be feeling that pain.
[00:21:33] That I was feeling.
[00:21:36] I was grateful to still be alive as I saw the hand of God make all my feet and go back up into the sky and disappear or dissipate.
[00:21:51] So never in your own mind, write mine, whatever you think is your sound mind, challenge the living God.
[00:22:02] Don't ever do it.
[00:22:03] Been there the night.
[00:22:06] Never want to do it again ever.
[00:22:11] Now have I been completely saved, sanctified, suffered and delivered from that moment on?
[00:22:19] No.
[00:22:21] I was still going in and out, in and out, in and out, in and out.
[00:22:23] But to God be the glory for mercy and for grace, for long suffering, for faithfulness, for gentleness, for correction, for chastening, for rebuke, for rebuke.
[00:22:39] I'm grateful.
[00:22:42] So very grateful.
[00:22:44] Because God did not have to do that.
[00:22:49] Yet he did.
[00:22:51] So just know, as I've told you before, on this powerful,
[00:23:02] Iacruable shine, this power of prayer podcast, that is powerful because of God,
[00:23:11] because of the Holy Spirit, because of Jesus.
[00:23:16] And we all know that they're all one.
[00:23:19] But we have to acknowledge all three in order to really know that we know who God is,
[00:23:28] who God's Son is and what he did for us on that cross.
[00:23:34] And when he went up back up into heaven, he sent out the Holy Spirit to rest, rule and abide in us
[00:23:42] and lead us in guidance unto all truth.
[00:23:45] We have to be grateful for that and thankful for that.
[00:23:50] So as I've told you before, this is not just about prayer.
[00:23:57] It's about testimony, teaching you how to pray.
[00:24:01] Whenever God leads me, this is what I do.
[00:24:04] I do pray most of the time.
[00:24:08] But there's sometimes when God will say, stop and testify.
[00:24:14] And I have to do that.
[00:24:16] Or he'll say stop and teach them this.
[00:24:19] And I have to do that.
[00:24:22] And so I'm grateful in the mighty, matchless name of Jesus.
[00:24:27] Amen and amen.