A firefighter looking for a young boy in a burning home is shoved and guided by an unseen force leading him to the child. Nick lived the 'Fast Life' straight to alcoholism and drug addiction. After encountering life-altering truths, he is living a new kind of Fast Life.
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Gosh, let's go back over to see. It's like 2006, I've been on the
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firefight, I've been a firefighter on Pueblo fire
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department for not quite a year and you know just came out of
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training, you know, actually was on a rural fire department for
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that. So tons of training in the books
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you know, live-fire trainings all these different things that
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we were doing so you Have the rules ingrained into you at that
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point. And the rule is to into outright
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when you go in searching a fire, you're with your partner,
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there's two of you, you're crawling on the ground holding
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onto the foot or the ankle of the of the guy who's leading.
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You know it you're going in as a team.
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What we got to this fire and I was on the truck that day and We
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got there. We literally got, you know, that
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the 911 call the dispatchers are coming across.
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And we have a five-year-old boy stuck inside the fire.
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So, everybody's on, you know, high alert like the the emotions
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are running High adrenaline's pumping.
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So it's just a little tiny house on the east side of town and I
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as a truckie at the time, I job was ventilation first.
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So we set a fan at the front door.
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And I ran round the back to make sure that there was an opening
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for to exhaust. Basically, the back half of the
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house has already burned off. So there's plenty of an opening
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in there and so we run back to the front, the engineers wanting
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to set up a ladder and I just keep getting pushed like I'm
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going inside because when we pulled up, there was actually
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somebody standing on the sidewalk who essentially pulled
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me out of the truck and said, he's in the back bedroom, he's
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in the back bedroom. That's rushing through my mind.
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So I have a partner with me and I finally just kind of shrugged
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off the engineer and said we're going inside, and he's like,
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well, whatever. And so me and the partner go in
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and we begin crawling underneath to her the back bedroom.
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And as we get in the back bedroom, we find that there's a,
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if not one other company, there may have even been to other
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companies in this little tiny bedroom with the back of the
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house. And so it was kind of like the
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This is it. Well, you know, nothing's going
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to happen, they're going to find him, you know, let's go back out
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and help help the engineers set up the ladder.
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And so we turned, we switch positions now.
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So I was leading and he was grabbing on a, my ankle and now
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we've turned around and he's leading us out of the house.
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Unless we go past this one opened or something essentially.
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I say something because of the time like I wouldn't say I was
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an unbeliever but I definitely wasn't a follower.
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I had zero relationship. I had more questions and I had
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anything else, you know? So I say something hit me in the
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chest and basically stopped me dead in my tracks and turned me
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into this room. I fully let go of my partner's
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foot. And I turned by myself.
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So I guess I had just come out of training, you know, we have,
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you know, a solid year of the do's and don'ts of firefighting
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at this point and I let go of my partner and I turned by myself
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into a room and as I went into that room all of a sudden,
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somebody else grabbed ahold of my ankle and ended up being
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another firefighter from a completely different company who
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somehow just managed to follow me.
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To a rumor, grab ahold of my ankle as we search through that
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room, you know, doing the we're doing a left, sweep staying on
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the left wall and I came across this little boy and we pulled
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them out of the fire for the longest time.
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I I think I knew like, I knew that it was something greater
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than me, but I didn't necessarily want to say that,
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that was God. But as you look at it now like
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there's no other explanation for it like it literally was like a,
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you know, that it was it was it was a presence that literally
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stopped me from doing what I was doing and turned me into what I
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wasn't supposed to do. But Leave.
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What was the saving Saving Grace if you will, for this little
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boy's life. Yeah.
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Where you're at now, looking back.
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Saying, you know, you think it was something Divine to God?
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What specifically do you think could have happened?
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If you could see, you know, spiritually had spiritual eyes
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on? What do you think happened at
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that moment? You know, the Holy Spirit
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intervened, you know, we live in a spiritual realm, I think is so
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so hard for people to see it sometimes, especially when
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you're stuck in the world and you're focused on things of the
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world and we think things are good things or bad things or why
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do these things happen? Well, you know, the there's a
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spiritual battle going on around us at all times and I believe
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that the Holy Spirits with us and guiding us and, you know, we
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can go further into crazy stories of my life.
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Where I know that the Holy Spirit was always listen to me.
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He was always with me. God was always with me if you
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will, he just, I wasn't always listening.
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When at this moment the Holy Spirit was was with me and
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turned me into doing what what they need to do to be done to
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save this little boy's life. So this is a probably throw you
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off a little bit big life question.
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But, you know, in a bigger situation, let's say a 911.
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Lots of firefighters, lots of tragedy going on, a lot of
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horrific situations and headlines and books are being
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written afterwards and articles of where was God, you know, why
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would this even happened? But yet internally, you hear
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lots of similar stories like yours.
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I felt guided, I felt pushed I suddenly knew where somebody
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was. Some people call it Angelic
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interventions, so you get the questions of an outsider of what
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you are describing. Let's say, unbeliever or
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whatever. Who would say, why did the fire
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happened in the first place if God's real if God's real and
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loving, why did he have a kid terrified in a corner in the
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first place and have a fire happen?
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Just why do you think What do you think would be an answer to
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that? I know it's a big question, but
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the intervention of God and circumstances in general
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happening But yet the stories of some Force stopping you and
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pushing you in a different direction to save an individual
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life and lots of individual lives, don't get saved.
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Well, I mean that's a, that's a big one, right?
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So the big one. I don't think it could answer
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maybe but just a thought. Yeah, I'm going to have some
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ideas on it, for sure. I think the biggest one you have
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to look at is that, you know, being a pastor now, and the road
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that I've been on you, that's scratching the surface that was
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before addiction, that was when I was still on the right path.
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As A Firefighter before, I became an alcoholic before we
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came in addict and I know so much more nowadays.
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But the biggest one I think the The big thing is that the Free
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Will part of it, right? Like God is always there for us,
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but he also gave us free, will, he gave us the ability to make a
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decision on whether or not we were going to follow him going
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to abide uninvite in him or not and we're doing that.
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We have a sinful nature, right? Where we've all Fallen when Adam
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and Eve fell in the garden that started The sinful nature that
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that we all are born into and we have free will and whether or
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not we want to follow God or not.
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As far as you know why wasn't God there in 911 or why was God
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not there for this little boy? You know, I read an article a
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while ago and I can't even tell you where I read it.
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I wish I could because I think I think I've been awesome.
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I for everybody to read but it really talked about.
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We often we often say where was God?
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In this or where was God, and out of why wasn't God there?
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Why did God do that? And the article really pushed on
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the fact that we've taken God, out of everything, we've taken
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God, out of schools, we've taken God out of the workplace, we've
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taken God out of the home. We continue to remove God from
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our daily life, but then we say well, why wasn't God there?
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And that was an interesting one to me and I don't know whether
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that's right or wrong of the theologies 100% corrector or how
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that is. But if we continue to replace
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him, if we could take him out a national anthems, if we take him
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off the dollar bill. If we do all these things, you
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know, who are we serving? You know, we know that the ruler
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of this world is the enemy, it's not God but in the, you know,
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Millennial reign will come and Jesus will return.
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And these things Happen. But right now we're living in
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Satan's world and we continue to remove God from it.
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The best we can, however, we can and governments and schools and
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homes. So I don't know if that's why
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God wasn't there in those situations, but I know that in
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9/11 in this act, you know, he give them free will that this
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story happens to go with this little boy that it was shortly
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after Fourth of July. The boy was playing with some
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fireworks on the back deck. The back deck of this house
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happened to be a very old rotted out wood that was, you know,
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really, really dry and the back porch starts on fire.
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Dad was in the shower. Dad grabbed the dog and ran out
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of the house. Thinking the boy was outside.
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And I always thought it was interesting because the kind of
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the credit was given to a passerby and this is you know,
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more free will why did this happen?
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We could we could dig into this for four hours as to the why.
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But I remember the newspaper article almost word for word
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said, The victims life was likely saved by The passerby Who
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Threw a brick through the window, which supplied
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supplemental oxygen to the to the boy, so he could live.
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And as firefighters, we all chuckled at that a little bit
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because the essentially, the passerby who threw the brick
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through the window is, is who almost killed him because the
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boy had the boy happened to be right underneath the window and
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the brick. Actually cause all the smoke to
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come right through him. That's what was, you know, he
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was hiding because he was scared and when that brick went to the
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window, all the smoke came right into the room.
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You know, why wasn't God there in that situation?
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You know? I don't know.
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Yeah. But I believe that, you know,
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the Bible tells us that his thoughts are greater than our
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thoughts, buddy? That's nice.
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Am 53. And he talks about, You know,
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his thoughts are greater than our thoughts.
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His plans are greater than our plans.
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I can't, and our brains are just too puny.
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Like, we put ourselves on this pedestal, like we should be able
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to figure all of this out and we have the answers, God doesn't.
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But man, we're very small. Like, we can't put God in a box
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and I believe that everything he does has a greater purpose in
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it, and maybe I'm living that right now, you know, when he
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turned me into that. We'll leave it at that point in
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time, like I didn't know him, I didn't have relationship with
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them that whole circumstance happened because now I can look
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back and go, wow, like God's been with me my entire life?
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Even through my addiction, God was with me, and now we're on
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this side and the little boy who lived, you know, survived, you
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know, was a spiritual war for those happen.
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A little boys doing with what little boys do, right?
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Like, how many times did you play with fireworks as a kid
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when you weren't supposed to? Like, We all do it.
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We all do these things, that that we should be doing, we test
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the limits. We see how far we can push
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things. Yeah, God Isn't Our person
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running out and putting out, literally, our fires all the
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time. And I think the question I asked
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or brought up, where was God, it's really a religious
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question. It's coming from the outside.
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Assuming God is around, maybe he's at church when you go
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there. But why didn't he?
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Home, do something as opposed to God's omnipresent, but he's
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working through his people. And if he wants to save a child,
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he may not have been a Believer yet.
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But maybe the child was, or maybe who knows, maybe the
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childhood Destiny honor. Maybe it was for a lesson for
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you, but intervention through people.
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Yeah, yeah, omnipresent right. God is everywhere always with
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us. yeah, I wish you know I wish my brain could comprehend and
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understand why and I think in this day and age it's it's
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easier for people to just two You know, believe that he wasn't
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there, he doesn't exist, then to try to really dive deep into why
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it is the way it is, right? So I don't want to skate over
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the fact that you mentioned Three things in passing and it's
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a lot more than passing that your pastor addict alcoholic.
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I think I picked up all three of those.
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Yeah, so you're what you use the term fast life, you may be using
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it for what you're doing now, but what does that mean in
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reference or why do you use the words fast life?
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I've If the fast life and I'm live in a fast life, they're two
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different lives at this point, but I think in this world today
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we're all running, whether whether we're running to God
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from God or just running the race, that's in front of us.
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Like we're running to work. We're running from our job to
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our kids, baseball game to whatever it is like we have this
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agenda that has this on this super fast pace, right?
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Right. So that the idea of Fast Life
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Ministries was kinda to try to just take Jesus with you, right
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to whatever you're doing, wherever you're going with as
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much as I love and here God telling me slow down, you know,
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be still and know that I am God a lot.
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Oftentimes in this world today it's hard for us to be still.
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It's hard for us to slow down with so many things going on.
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Distracted. We have cell phones.
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Buzzing, and going off constantly, we have emails
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dinging. We have a million different
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things going on at once. So it's that's the kind of fast
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life. I'm living now with my family
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and full-time job. You know, owning a business as
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well as a Ministry that is very much becoming full time at this
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point. So I'm living the fast life and
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I used to live a fast life. The fast like used to be drugs,
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alcohol sex. Party.
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Go, go, go, go go. And now it's just has a
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different form and it's about taking Jesus with us. but what
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brings you to that transfer is so If you're an alcoholic and
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we're addicted to something, there's always kind of like a
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mode of reaching for a higher power and even an exercise, I do
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remember, remember Billy Blanks. We have those videos on all the
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time. He was like a did boxing.
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I forgot what it's called. People listening are going to
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remember tie a bow tie ball, okay things.
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Yep. And he would always say, okay
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this is When it gets tough reach for your higher power and I feel
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like, you know, there's a part of that whenever you're trying
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to get over something tough, the worst part of exercise is
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addictions. And so from the outside, you can
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look and say, well, religion or belief, a lot of people going
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their stories from addiction to Ministry.
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They found a crutch they need, they go from one addiction to
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another. What, what is real for you that
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that's not true. How is your faith?
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Real is opposed as just something else another rope to
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pull out of the mire. Yes, I think that.
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I like this question. I don't know if I fully know how
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to answer it, but I know that like, I've had several people,
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you tend to do with. So also, you're addicted to
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Jesus now and I'm like, well, yeah, I mean, I guess like if
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that's how you want to look at it, that's great.
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But the reality is that I did find Jesus.
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He found me. He knew where I was the entire
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time, but he said it's your turn.
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The ironic thing about it is everybody talks higher power.
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I only lasted about Two months in AAA.
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There wasn't a good in a group. So let me go into the story,
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just a little bit to give, give the listeners a bit of a
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background, so I grew up party and I grew up going fast.
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If, when I say fast life, I mean bicycles motorcycles
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wakeboarding drag racing. Any of those things that I could
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go to get adrenaline and do like I was doing it as I progress
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through high school that that adrenaline addiction, if you
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will started to turn, To, you know, drinking smoking
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marijuana, doing cocaine, taking ecstasy, and doing all these
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other things to get some sort of high at a party or whatever.
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It was my life cleaned up. When my first daughter was bored
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from my ex-wife who we had met in the party scene, it was a
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relationship that we had nothing based on God.
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It was only based on a party. It was never, it was never a
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great Situation. But we had a beautiful child out
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of it and when she was born, my life cleaned up a bit, I got on
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the fire department and started to walk a better path.
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So The thing about it was is that as I'm walking this path,
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I'm experiencing all these things like, saving this little
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boy and all these other things that are happening.
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That I don't necessarily know how to deal with because I come
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from a sweep, it under the rug family.
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Like if you push it under here, like it'll get better over time.
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Well that didn't really work for me.
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So I bottled it all up and then my release wasn't a higher power
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if you will It was alcohol. It was drugs.
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And so when my relationship went terrible, my marriage went
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South, the work life wasn't great.
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I had too much stuff to deal with.
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I started drinking heavily and eventually that heavy drinking
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left to me losing the Fire Department job.
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Getting divorced, my wife at the time had become a heroin addict.
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Crazy, just we could. Once again we could go for hours
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into these things but my wife had become a heroin addict.
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I'm a full-blown alcoholic. I lose the Fire Department job
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about a year after leaving their, I get divorced and 10
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days after the divorce, another divine intervention.
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I literally put my daughter to bed, I had gotten full custody.
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I was definitely the lesser of two evils.
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I got full custody of my child, I put her to bed.
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I went downstairs, I made a drink.
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It was a vodka cranberry and it was the end of the vodka bottle
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and as an alcoholic, that's kind of like a big ol.
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My gosh, like, what am I going to do?
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And so my daughter sleeping upstairs, the vodka bottle is
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empty and I'm going well what do I do?
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Do I jump in the car or just run down Street and get a bottle.
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Do I load her up in the car and go get a bottle?
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You know what am I going to do? All right then and there once
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again I say somebody spoke to me and said everything you need is
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right here. And I quit drinking, like I,
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that was it. I said, okay, yeah, I have my
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little girl at full custody of her.
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I have everything I need. I'm good, I'm not going to drink
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anymore, but I wish it was that easy.
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That is just a switch went off and I was done but there was
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some suffering that had to happen in that and that was I
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did sleep that night. I called my parents the next day
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and I said, hey like I'm going to quit drinking but I know that
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if I'm alone I'm not Trust myself.
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I'll end up at the liquor store. Some take my daughter to school,
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can I come to your house? Will you, please remove any
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alcohol you have in the house and I proceeded to have the, you
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know, delirium tremens and dry vomiting, and just all these
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things and eventually had a seizure and was taken to the
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hospital I never turned back to drinking ever.
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That was 2010. I was December 12 2010 but in
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that went to a a couple time learned some things and, you
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know, learned about higher power.
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But my mind was still, I can do this on my own, I just quit
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drinking, so, I don't need buddy else.
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My will is good enough. I can take care of this and I
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did really good for I don't know what it was a year, maybe a
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little over and then started smoking weed with a lot of guys
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in the wakeboard culture, I went back to work for the family and
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we own a boat dealership and started smoking weed, weed led
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to cocaine. Next thing, you know, 2013, I'm
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a full-blown cocaine addict headed to rehab.
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I go to rehab. You take us to all these
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different AA programs in a programs, Buddhist 12-step,
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programs, Catholic programs. I mean every different religion,
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every different view you could possibly have.
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They wanted their whole program was to introduce people to these
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different things to see what could You know what, what they
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would grab ahold of which higher power they grabbed ahold of
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right throwing darts at the hall.
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See, if something sticks, see which one sticks.
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And so in this rehab, I had lost a lost a girlfriend and I'm
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staying at that point in time and I thought it's pretty
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serious. But obviously the addiction was
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wasted more serious than than the relationship was and so I
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prayed that if God brought her back I would turn my life to
00:24:45
him. And what's crazy about that is
00:24:49
that I had a dream that night. And I believe that God can speak
00:24:54
to us through our dreams and I believe that a lot of things can
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can speak in there, but the tree was that I was at a wedding with
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this girl. I didn't know who this girl was
00:25:05
at this point in time, but essentially, she left me at the
00:25:09
wedding. Basically broke up with me and
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left me at the wedding. Like it was, it was, it was over
00:25:16
fast-forward. Six months later, I had prayed.
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God would bring me this relationship back me and this
00:25:22
girl, Now, dating again, and there's a wedding coming up that
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we're supposed to go to and she breaks up with me the day before
00:25:30
the wedding. So crazy.
00:25:34
Well, it is rightly said the world sees.
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How do you explain that? Yeah, I don't know if you can,
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but that's the kind of spiritual world that we live in right?
00:25:44
Was that God, was that Satan? I don't know.
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But I was asking God to do something specific for me and
00:25:49
that's not necessarily how it works.
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So, Spin back to that rehab and I'm starting to pray is starting
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to do these things. The second I walked out of
00:25:58
there, 30 days later, all of that praying went right out the
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door. I went right back to living my
00:26:03
life. My way, my will doing my thing
00:26:08
and did great for a long period of time until I was actually
00:26:14
playing hockey. I tore my rotator cuff the next
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day. I get in an argument with my dad
00:26:18
at work. I'm in pain.
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I happened to Home and the neighbor across the streets, a
00:26:25
drug addict. I'm sorry.
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A drug dealer. I'm the drug addict.
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I had seen him in a while and he says, hey, do you need anything?
00:26:32
And I said, yes and boom. I'm right down the spiral all
00:26:35
over again. I'm in there for about a year.
00:26:40
And, you know, this is how it really truly happened for me was
00:26:47
I'm in addiction, I meet a girl on Facebook, we get to talking
00:26:54
to just come out of a relationship.
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So I kind of paused and gave her some time to come out of that
00:26:59
because the reality was I had my own relationship with cocaine
00:27:02
again. And that was a You know, pretty
00:27:06
serious relationship that took up a lot of my time.
00:27:11
Few months go by. We start date and things are
00:27:13
going amazing. Fell head over heels in love
00:27:16
with her but she knew something was wrong.
00:27:19
And eventually I told her I was an addict and she stood next to
00:27:24
me and said, okay what do we need to do next?
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And I went to rehab and not October 5th of 2015, back up,
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just a little bit. So after I told her I was a an
00:27:39
addict. Her Roots came back so I didn't
00:27:42
grow up in any sort of church or anything like that but she did
00:27:45
she had youth group and different things like that.
00:27:47
And even though we were both very far from God at this point
00:27:50
in time, she began to pray over me.
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So like when I would fall asleep at night, she would pray over
00:27:57
me. She started praying for me.
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She's so start to reignite within her.
00:28:03
And when I went to rehab, actually, I'm in rehab, and I
00:28:08
have a vision. And given to me of a
00:28:17
essentially, the vision was that I'm supposed to help people.
00:28:23
That I was supposed to help people switch from being
00:28:28
addicted, to drugs into action, sports into bicycles,
00:28:34
motorcycles wakeboarding. All those things that came out
00:28:37
of was kind of the vision. I took that as you do a business
00:28:42
plan because I've always been in business and I created a whole
00:28:48
facility and I had a whole plan on how we are going to introduce
00:28:51
addicts to action sports. How we were going to help the
00:28:56
whole. While my girlfriend of the time
00:28:57
is praying for me and all these other things.
00:28:59
And when I came out of treatment, we never turn back
00:29:04
about three months later. She said, I think we should
00:29:06
start looking at churches, we kind of started going to church
00:29:10
has I was open to it, I fell asleep and most of them and then
00:29:15
the cocaine No just it just the monotone vote Voice.
00:29:22
Yeah pastors this would put me sleep, I just did.
00:29:26
I was the cocaine though have that effect when it's when
00:29:29
you're coming down from it. I never found that.
00:29:33
I mean, when you're actively using, yes, like, I mean, I.
00:29:37
Okay. The, and that was those times
00:29:39
when she would pray over me because, like, I would literally
00:29:41
be on like a 24-hour bender, and then go over to her house to
00:29:46
watch a movie with her and not the doing any cocaine in the
00:29:48
body, just shuts, down, I go sleep.
00:29:52
But at this point, you know, I've been sober for probably 3
00:29:56
months. Of no using cocaine.
00:30:00
So it wasn't that the EM unless maybe I'm wrong maybe there's a
00:30:04
doctor or somebody out there tells me.
00:30:05
Yeah that was part of it but I think it was more just that I
00:30:10
boring sermons. Yeah, just just the monotone
00:30:14
voices. Put me to sleep.
00:30:15
It just wasn't the right fit and then on Easter of 2017, we went
00:30:20
to the church right now and the Holy Spirit got a hold of me.
00:30:24
They're like I just felt something different.
00:30:26
I was awake. I was Sting has paying
00:30:28
attention, how we never turn back.
00:30:32
So it started with prayers from her.
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You know, I don't know if I ever actually got to that higher
00:30:40
power point, right? That you talked about in the
00:30:42
original question. I don't know if I ever got into
00:30:44
that higher power, like even after that, you know, coming out
00:30:49
of that last rehab, you know, I went to AA for like two months
00:30:52
and there's some cool people in there, but I can't, I just kept,
00:30:56
you know, we're saying these prayers and we're calling our
00:30:58
higher power. And at the time, I didn't
00:31:00
realize it. But now that you go in there,
00:31:02
like half the prayers were, citing are coming directly out
00:31:04
of the Bible, but we can't use the word god.
00:31:07
We can't say Jesus like we can't like it's just and that goes
00:31:10
back to my original thing. We talked about minutes ago that
00:31:12
we're taking God out of everything.
00:31:15
You can't say the name of Jesus anymore.
00:31:18
Like right. Why like why is that offensive?
00:31:23
Because it's true. But is the enemy want to sit
00:31:26
down the only truth that there really isn't?
00:31:29
Only one name under Heaven by which men can be saved, so you
00:31:33
can say every name but that yep. Exactly.
00:31:37
Yeah. That's that's an awesome way to
00:31:39
put it.